June 21, 2009 • No Comments
as i lie on my bed, my thoughts about d past 2 months that he’s not around came again flashing in my mind n began to pull me back from yesterday, i felt my insides hurting terribly w/ guilt anger n regret.
i thought i met d guy hu would wipe those tears away, hug me tight n tell d world how happy he was for having me, but as always, it was completely d contrary of what sprangs in my mind. it was no longer d vague feeling dat would be felt in some distant day, i learned to live n accept d fact that as days passes by, he (may) no longer have d same feelings wen we first have that “sparkle” of luv between us. was he sincere? d answer came to me slowly, painfully through heavy black veils of grief. i almost believed that he was d man hu will pick up those broken pieces to make me whole again. it was so easy for him to leave and abandon me. he never told me d reasons why he left n until now it remained a question. he was my friend, ung “tropang tunay” n i wish i didn’t allow thaT friendship to develop into a personal rel’nship.
despite what happened i never have it as an excuse to let my life become miserable. i had this deal w/ God to sacrifice that feeling for a dream, a dream that’s surely be more important to my life n my future, and God was always right….
our memories keeps on haunting me, trying to always pull me back, this tym i fought back to finally let go n forget that piece of my past. the shock it brought would take a while to wear off but i’m now getting used to it n in tym it will go awa, hopefully….
as of now i’m looking forward w/ a good start… n w/ someone i feel my better half(^_^)
June 21, 2009 • No Comments
tormented w/ pain, anguish n sorrow, i find solace in my own little refuge, a place where i find tranquility n peace dat bring my mind, body n souL 2 rest. it is where i puLL myseLf 2gedr n regain d Lost strength n buiLd new dreams,.. unthinkabLe, as it may seem…. my rum, my sanctuary, my home,,, d sole witness to d many tyms my heart is crumbLed, d muted witness to my crying days n dark nights. it is where i pick up d broken pieces of my dreams…
June 21, 2009 • No Comments
We givE oUr LIvEs 2 dAt w/c wE givE ouR tyM. I havE LearnEd thAt it is vEry difficuLt if nOt impossibLe to uNcLattEr onE’s Lyf by stArting at d tOp of d piLe w/ d idEa thAt d soLutioN is to juSt geT thinGs sOrted n beTter orGanizEd, buT thAt is noT enuF. Much hAs 2 bE discArded. We must actuaLLy geT riD of it. To do thiS wE neeD to dEveLop a List of bAsics, a List of thOse thinGs daT are indispensabLe 2 ouR mortaL weLfarE n happiNess n ouR eternaL saLvatioN. It musT bE d prOduct of inSpiratiOn n prAyerfuL judgemEnt bEtwEen d thiNgs we reaLLy nEed n thinGs we juSt wanT. It shud sepArate Need frOm grEed. It musT be ouR besT underStandinG of thOse thiNgs thAt r impOrtAnt As oPposed 2 thoSe thiNgs thAt r Just iNterEstiNg.
June 21, 2009 • No Comments
friends bring out either d best or worst in us. sometimes i really can’t understand myself in terms of what i really want from my friends or what kind of friends i would fit into
we may have a lot of friends who promise not to leave us yet sometimes such promises are unfulfilled n they still leave us but there r those true people dat no matter wat happen they never leave us.
i want for instance to always remember d tym we met at my very crossroad, how u became my sources of smiles and together helped me conquer my own path of lyf. as each day unveils an open door, a precious memory is created fillin’ up d treasures i entrusted from u
i thank them for makin’ me feel better wen i’ve done something stupid by swearing they’ve made d same mistake n warning me beforehand ’bout d things you’ve learned d hard way-so i won’t have to. for singing along w/ our favorite songs, going to “chick flicks” w/ and 4 helping me create d kind of memories dat make me smile…. so much to thank for, i’m always glad 4 havin’ u guyz.. i luv u ol!!
